Poop

i wonder if anyone ever journals while going to the bathroom or while having sex.. is that even possible?

okay well i drove up to columbus saturday. ocscar came. the ride up wasnt bad, he sat in his seat thing i made him. when i got there, i unloaded stuff and took him into my sister's apt. and then me and my sister were going to go shopping while mark, her husband, stayed home with the dog. yeah well we didnt shop, by the time we found a parking space, mark had already called three times. he kept calling bc oscar wouldnt stop whining or settle down. i guess he isnt a dog person. he obviously was freaking out. well i should say this.. they arent allowed to have pets in the apt.. so, thats why he was freaking out. and i guess they called the police on the nieghbors the night before, and the neighbors know that bevin called the police on them. so i guess they were worried about them paying bevin and mark back.. so yeah. finally the third time he called. we had to go back home. it sucked, cus bc of oscar we couldnt do our plans. he is just so attached to me and freaks out when im not around. makes me feel loved, though. so we stayed in and played games. then since we couldnt go out to eat, we took a walk and thot we were gonna eat at some mini street fair. but ended up coming home. got some kfc, and dessert at giant eagle and then took a picnic supper to the park. played a few games there. then came home and watched ice age 2. so it wasnt a complete bust. the picnic was nice and i lile playing games. i even told my sister that we could just put him in kennel, but later i was thinking, that wouldnt have worked, cus i dont have any medical records on him, well with me. so yeah. it was fine. i think they were ready for oscar to leave. and i wanted to get home.

when i was leaving, oscar started barking, and bevin freaked out and was yelling at him and then telling me he cant bark and i needed to stop him from barking. i really dont think i over-reacted. i thot it wasnt a big deal. we were walking out the door, just one or two barks werent gonna matter. so when i got out the door. she was like,***, dont be like that. i guess she thot i was over-reacting or something. who knows. but no im gonna be like me, and im not gonna change. i remeber her friends were having a conlifct or dont get along anytmore and one of them wants the other to change. when the girl who was told to change, was like, no, this is me, and im not gnna change fore you. that incident reminded me of that. it pisses me. she does this all the time. we are not always gonna get along. and when i act like im over-reacting just dealt with it.

earlier she and i were talking about this compeer program. i agree i am one of the most normal persons in it. but she coudlnt understand why i was even having amentor. i was like, uhm depression, and anxiety. she said something like well depression is so common these days, i dont really think its an issue. then shes like, well i guess it could be considered a mental illness, but 1 in 5 ppl are depressed. that pissed me off. but its true. no one really takes depression seriously. but no one has said that to me face.. im surprised i didnt start crying, but of course she would have yelled at me for 'over reacting' whatever...

i have a bvr appt tomorrow. no idea whats supposed to happen. bvr is supposed to help me get a job. and i have tried to contact this counselor for ages and im just now getting a meeting with her.. i dont know. i dont feel like explain it. im already making tons of typos...

so my appt at the MH place was fine. i met with a case manager. she looked fairly normal. had to get an isp, kind of like a treatment plan. nothing moving forward from that, tho.

civil service test was fine. i thot it was harder than the mail messenger one. this one was for clerk 1 and 2. stopped over at bevins after the test.

thursday..dentist appt. he offered to refund my money for the bite splint. bc there is nothing he can do.. talked about me seeing an oral surgeon, yeah right, i dont have any insurance. so i was like can i just try it for a bit longer and then come back. thinking i would be dedicated to wear it at least several hours a day for a week.

i think one of our neighbors died. we call him chairman. he always sat outside and looked or watched the nieghborhood. and smoked. he was old. 80s probly. but he went into the hospital to have a procedure done. maybe last week or last wednesday. guess after the surgery, there were complications. fluid in the lungs, pneumonia, and his kidney were failing. so he was in icu. then i got a call from the wife, this moening, she left a msg. saying to just keep an eye on her place when were in and out. she is pretty old too, worse off then what her husband is/was. think shes almost blind and cant hear real well and uses a walker. i thought about going over the this evening. but i think i will go tomorrow. see if she needs anything. i wanted to be the first one to stop by. but who knows who all she called. bu my dad used to go over and talk to chairman. so i may go over tomorrow.

joanna came over friday. we hung out around the house. i suck at entertaining, so it was kind of awkward when i ddint know what to do or say. we watched norbit and ordered pizza. not sure if she liked it or not. shes really christian-y and i am just afraid some parts were inapporpite or risque. it was ok. some parts funny.


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i dont know i guess thats it, for now.