I'm burning up..

god i feel sick.. i have this huge fear of throwing up..

ihavent felt so great the past two days. tues nite i had a headache of some sort. my stomach hurt and i was dizzy and stuff. today, wednesday, i had a migraine/headache for the last half of the day. now my stomach hurts. it hurt after eating dinner. it feels how my stomach feels before i am about to have diarhhea. sorry tmi, i dont care.. but i am constipated so its just the feeling and no diarrhea.

i dont know anyone..

so i thot it would be a good idea to become a volunteer for the compeer program.. being on the giving end instead of the receiveing end. the application has a reference section. i have to put 4 down. i only have three. barely two or one. but yeah.. so i wont be able to put a forth down. its so hard filling out apps, bc of references.. no wonder i dont have a job..

uhm.. i finally have an appt with a therapist at the center... cept its the person who i didnt want to be with. i usually dont judge ppl by their looks. but in this case i am.. oh well. i have an appt. wednesday. so wish me luck..

i laid down around 1130pm tonite. and couldnt fall asleep. the weather alert went off around midnight. i got up and turned it off...felt really dixxy and came back to bed... felt naucious. then i thot id turn the tv on and check the weather. so i watched tv for a bit then.. then turned it off. laid back down.. then came on here.. i cannot sleep. i dont think im really tired tho.. i dont know..

i should be cleaning my room during times like these. but im afraid bugs will be hiding underneath a pile and itll freak me out.. since its dark and nighttime. yeah im weird..

uhg i got a headache and feel funny... this sucks..

its thundering again.. blah.. i hope the electtricty doesnt go off

my mom is thinking about getting a dog. i think its weird. but i think she wants to get another one for her or oscar. i dont know why she is thinking about getting another dog. its not going to replace chester.. so who knows.. shes looking online at humane societys and resuce sites. it has to be non shedding and hypo allergenic for me. so i dont know what will come of it

tomorrow im going for a volunteer lunch for compeer. to a buffet. sounds terrible to me, right now. i hope i feel halfway better tomorrow. then i have the painting lessons with the group. i acutally like that. i wish i could get the same supplies and paint on my own. but its probly expensice.

sorry for the typos.. i dont feel like correcting them

i dontknow what else to writeabout..