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2 am

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

well im not sure if my parents are going to HI or not.

i am so tired..my eyes are watering and itchy.. not sure if i wrote about it or not. but i tried listening to music..while in bed, but i think i zoned out and just started thinking... my mind will not stop. i need a sedative or something... i didnt go to bed until aroun 4:30 yesterday. it about 2 now. i was talking to myself/pretend friend, about this situation.. but now i can remember what i was saying...dont ask about the pretend friend..thing... but yeah. it pisses me off that i cant sleep...and then i have heard its bad to be on the computer or watch tv right before bed.. something about making the brain active.. or i dont know... if you do those things its hard for you to get to sleep. well i am pretty much screwing myself over..then, arent i?

so yeah, i think i wrote about how my psyciatrist suggested americorps. i emailed.. yes emailed, i am a dumbass, my mom about it.. then she brought up a good point.. i like my space and with those programs you have to share living quarters. and so it probly wouldnt work out so great. so got disappointed again. i honestly dont know what kind of job i can do. i sill emailed all the places in OH for more information. so whatever..

walmart called me about a job opening on saturday. well actually they didnt say it was walmart, but yeah. i guess they assume everyone in this town knows the number for walmart. god..but yeah that place is so disorganized, i mean for a HUGE company like that, they should do better. but i swear i only knew the persons first name.. and well hard ot explain.. after i went thru several ppl and got to talk to this person.. it was a cashier position. i dont want that...

i went to a curbside recycling meeting for this town.. it was ok. but lasted forever, so i left early.. people are obviously close minded and dont care about the environment. most of them there, wanted an incentive for recycling.. god, cant you just do it for the environment and the surroundings? obviously not. i guess there is more to it than that.. but i dont know. ...