Except me..

im depressed.. well okay.. im always depressed. i guess i am having some jealously issues, well i always have issues with jealously.. okay, i dont know then...

everyone is going on trips or vacations except me. my family hasnt done a family vacation for a few years. those are pretty much over. but my parents went to italy last year, i stayed home, of course..wasnt invited. then they are going to VT for a wedding and leisure for a few days. probly be gone about a week. oh, and i think my parents also took a new england cruise last year.. i wasnt invited. my sister and husband are going to italy for their honeymoon. they both were over here for dinner. of course everything is about them. wedding rahs, and glitches. and the travel info for their honeymoon. my cousins, aunt and uncle, are going on a cruise, then one-the same cousin- is going to africa, again. and then the parents are going to italy. and my ex-compeer friend is going on a roadtrip to CAN with her mom and sisters. so yeah.. i dont think i have been anywhere in a long time. thing is.. i really cant going anywhere. im gonna browse the internet in a bit, just fantasize. i really dont know what a bargain is. but i dont have a lot of money. i dont have anyone to go with and i dont wanna go by myself. so im sol.. go me.

and i am getting more and more sick of leaving at home with my parents. but i dont have a job and not enough money to move out. i may call community action monday. i guess they have a sub-division for low income housing near their building. looks nicer then the really low income housing in another part of town. but i have to see what the qualifications are. it may just be for seniors or single females with children. damn, if i got pregnant i could so be eligible for a lot of shit.. mmmm....

i dont know. needed to get that out.