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11:53pm

Saturday, June 16, 2007

i feel like a complete idiot.. so i read an article in our crappy newspaper, a couple of days ago. about kroger pulling a glbt related newpaper off their shelves. that pissed me off so bad. so i want to now boycott kroger. the only problem is thats like the only place to grocery shop here. so i am still going to try to do that shopping elsewhere. and then i decided to create a facebook group on this subject. i feel dumb since i did that. of course no one is going to join. i really dont care, but i just feel stupid..

monday i have a civil service test in columbus, about an hour and 15 minute drive from where i live. oh its at 8:30 in the am. i was able to arrange to drive up to my sister's place and stay the night there, by myself, sunday and then drive from her place to the testing site. i still cant make a decision. if i dont go sunday nite, i have to get up around 6am or something. personally i would rather not go and reapply for another test date. and take my chances ... if its at 8:30 again, then maybe it will be different circumstances than now i dont know. so i told my mom i am still not sure. and that i really dont wanna do it anyways. i am not even sure it is an ideal job...its called data processor 1. but yeah.. i keep telling her that i am really scared when i drive. i am so 'not there' while i am behind the wheel, in a daze, just not paying much attention..or something.. but everytime i tell her, she really doesnt respond.

then my dad and mom were talking.. and my dad couldnt remember the last time he didnt 'something'. so my mom was like, you cant remember? ***, I am worried about you. Everytime these situations come up, i always chime in.. oh well, i have that all the time or do that all the time.. not sure where i am going with this. but its completely normal for a 54 year old to forget things. but me, a 23 year old, who doesnt have a busy life.. thats not normal... but whatever.. like i said before she just shrugs it off or ignores.

went shopping today.. i got a book of poems... called solitude... oh yeah.. then a grilling book for my dad for fathers day and a hidden picture puzzle book. i was gonna get two magazines: paste and Ms. but i thot i was already spending enough money..

yeah i think thats all i got.

cant remember what else to say or whatever..