Stranger than Fiction

just finished watching stranger than fiction. felt like i was forcing myself to watch it. its been sitting on the coffee table for awhile now. cant get another movie till i return it. but yeah. i have always wanted to see it, so i felt like i was forcing myself to watch it.. who knows.

so im a really tired. i got a headache, same as always, around 7,30 8 o clock. i think it was from being at the computer for so long. since then it has been with me. i should sleep, but im not. and it hurts to look at the screen but im still doing it. and i took at least a 2 hour nap today. altho i did get up around 7,30. but yeah for some reason i am really tired. i think i have come up with a somewhat logical? reason as to why i stay up thru the nite even tho im so tired. maybe i stay up, so i dont have to lay awake in bed and think. cus whenever i stay up, i am always doing something. and maybe i am almost afraid of just laying awake thinking.. mm i dont know. it sounds pretty good and makes sense. but probly doesnt make me much sicker, ha, not that im trying, but yeah.

two temp agencies.. no luck. dont feel like writing much tho. i kind of think i am better than the ppl that go there. what are they thinking by wearing track suits, sweat pants, to an interview, or even sleeping in the waiting area?! no idea. but i felt out of place as usual. after the second temp agency thing, my parents asked how it went, i said it was pointless. and my dad said something like when youre just starting out.. actually im not sure what he said. but they dont get it.. but i cant expect them to, cus they have never been to a temp agency. i feel so dumb, im the only grand daughter who didnt graduate from college, and cant find a job and has to go to a temp agency. i bet my cousins have never stepped foot in one. whatever. it hurts to think... whats that a sign of.. the second place was a little nicer. there was one old woman who came in. never seen that before. i feel bad for her, i wonder what kind of work shell be doing. but two different ladies working there said two different things about finding clerical positions. one said theyre arent that many. and one said that they have been busy and theyre sure they can find me something. whatever. i knew they couldnt help me. but the opportunity to say, you have to start somewhere for office experience, didnt come up. oh well.