Kiddie Kuts

fuck.. i feel like cutting..

why am i always jealous of everyone. pretty much everything and everyone triggers me and makes me feel sad and whatever..

why cant i be normal'

why cant i get the fucking motivation to loose weight, to stop eating. why cant i be like i was in high school. why dammit, why

my mom suggested me calling up my cousin tomorrow. i want to drive to kmart and look at some things. my mom thot i should go out of my comfort zone and call her up to see if she wanted to go shopping with me. no i will not do that. no way. id rather drive over with a complete stranger than with her. she is everything i am not. why the hell would she wanna come anyways. fuck that.

has anyone tried putting vitamin e on scars.. like they are supposed to fade them or something.

i have no one. no one. no one.

occ. one person online. but the rest, zero. they wont even talk to me online. too busy doing other stuff. too caught up in their own shit.

i dont know if ill cut.

i feel very alone.

very desperate

very pissed at myself.